"I wish I took photos of beautiful things. So I could look at them and think about them and smile because ‘I took that’… and no one else could take the same photograph, because it’s mine, and it’s permanent, and even when everything in the photo is dead, or gone, or old, or broken, your photo, the one that you took, is still there, and still beautiful. Everyone’s younger, and the food’s still hot, and there’s flowers on the table, and they’re colourful, and you want to reach back into the photograph and pick one up because you just remembered that you liked their smell… and it’s like a little bit of a memory, that’s just for you."

So, I'm back, for now. But I don't think I'm going to be reviewing any more. It's just like, I've realised that Ballet is taking over my life. I have no friends outside of Ballet, because at school I'm just the kid from Brooklyn who dances. I'm not going home any time soon, and I'll never make it big as a ballet dancer. So it's time to give up, time to relinquish the dream. I need to start living in the real world, and I need to do that starting from now.

Ballet will always be a part of my life, but for me, that time is over. It's time to start eating chocolate, so start playing sports, to climb mountains, and just say, fuck my feet. Who cares if I twist an ankle, break a toe.


I just want to be free.

...

Oh my gosh, life is craaaazyyy right now. So, we were moving back to Brooklyn at the end of this school year, around July, but now we're here for "the forseeable future." Um, yay? Plus, that means that the GCSEs I'm taking in June actually matter as I won't be able to do US qualifications.

So, back to ballet...

I have re-sprained my ankle, so no poite shoes at all for the time being. That means no more reviews at the moment (unless I reviewed "normal" shoes, but that's boring.)

So, I'll see you in about a month, with more reviews!

Callie xx